I work for a firm which was hiring new recruits then. i was the person assigned for the job of interviewing potential candidates. So this morning, i had a hell of a work to do.
This particular interviewee was a college graduate, fresh from graduation. Cool as a cucumber his body language suggested, a potential recruit. Just as a typical interview might be pictured there were a few people around a small round glassy table. The sound of papers shuffling was a usual and an air of gravity loomed around. The college grad opened the door, peered into the room, and out of sheer etiquette said “sir, can i come in...?” All of a sudden the eyebrows of few were raised and a quick look into each others’ eyes followed. The air of silence was broken when someone finally said,”Yes you maaaaaay, and sit down here.”(pointing out to the a common mistake committed in English)
The grad took his seat in a feat of hesitation and said “Good morning sirs..”.Again eyebrows were raised ,this time more than the previous one and this time their looks suggested as if they were making out something. “Good morning...hmmmm Mr. Sood”,one of them said. He started reading out his resume. ”First division in 10th, first division in 12th, merit in graduation....wonderful..”,”hobbies include creative writing, and...”.
“ Sir me choti choti kavita likhta hoon..”
The words were echoing through the room and the board was amazed, at least for a moment. A moment later they resumed their calm and normalcy was restored in the room.
“What..? hmm..yeah..”
“Please report all your answers in English..”.there was a look of hesitation on his face and he was dumbfounded. Finally after some break he spoke out..”sir mujhe thik se English bolna nahi aata!”
There was a sudden hustle and sounds of murmuring all around. The interviewers took to talking among themselves and then I finally said,” if you don’t know English then we can’t recruit you”
The newcomer got nervous and started chattering all out. ”sir ,i really need this job. I have no other way of make living and ..”(he started all in his broken bits of English)
But a stern voice(it was of me, the senior most among us) suddenly stopped him” we can’t help your cause. English is mandatory over here. You may leave.”
There was dead silence all around. The man was almost beginning to sob. It was evident that he dearly needed the job. He wasn’t faking. He got up from his seat and slowly started walking towards the main door.
The other persons were looking but they could not help. It was not in their hands.
The next candidate opened the door and entered while making way for the dejected man. He looked at the insiders for a last time and disappeared. The other interviews and proceedings were held normally. Finally the interviews were over and the office hours had ended by then.
We were discussing the possible candidates who could be selected. There were many promising souls offering to do everything for the company. I made my way towards the parking lot where i saw the interviewee who was rejected standing near my car. He was facing backwards. I shouted, ”Mr.sood ..what are you doing till now.” The person turned towards me and looked. He was not Mr.Sood. Oh god!! What had happened to me?? The person had etched himself on the frame of my mind. I was quick to reply..”Sorry, I thought it was someone else.”
I got into the car and started driving. I lit up a cigarette and started thinking. I suddenly realised that the man had crawled into my thinking through the crevices of my mind. Why was I thinking all about him? Who is he? I had just met him for a couple of minutes and that was all. Why had he caught my attention..?
“Excuse me.!!”,someone knocked on the window panes. It was the traffic policeman . i was at the traffic signal and the policeman had seen me smoking in the car. This was even more frustrating. Even the car ac was operating at its maximum, lines of sweat were trickling down from my forehead to my cheek and then to my neck. “ why are you smoking? You know it is illegal to smoke here”. “sorry sir..”, i was quick to retort.
“This being your first time, i am leaving you. The next time i see you i’m gonna fine you.”
I was getting irritated at him. I could well have cited all his corrupt practices and all cases of bribe, that he used to take from the vehicle drivers. But considering the fact that i was disturbed and it was not wise to start arguing with a cop, i held myself back from the argue and apologised. He let me off after a few more of his cynical comments.
I reached home. There was no one in the house. My servant Raghu must have left early. “ these useless people, no work and only asking for increments in wage..!” i said to myself.
I took a shower. My post work habits are pretty well defined. After the shower i eat two sandwiches ( with extra mayonesse) , an omelette of two half fried eggs, and a glass of fruit juice (could be of orange or pineapple). After a two hour break I take a soup stick combo ( tomato and beetroot alternately). My dinner constitutes a curry with boiled fish or steak , parathas some rice and another curry of beans or other lenticels.
The only reason that i still tolerated my servant Raghu , despite countless flaws he was dotted with, was that he exactly new what i needed. I need not to explain him about my dietary habits. I had also grown used to his way of preparing food. I had got used to the taste.
Although my habits are monotonous but i never get bored of it. Day after day i have the same food and i still like it to the fullest. But it was a different today. I did not like the food today. There was something that the food lacked. Maybe there was less salt or more of sugar or whatever; i did not like the food today. So much i disliked the food that i had to go out and get something from a nearby restaurant. I ate that whatever i could and then again i again lit a cigarette. There was something itching inside me that made me take the cigarette. I again was starting to feel guilty for the poor lad.
But it was enough. I had thought much about him. There was nothing that i could have done for him and that it was beyond my powers to exercise something that could have helped him. Thinking this i threw my cigarette in a haste and proceeded to my bedroom to sleep.
The next morning the results were supposed to come out. I had to address the new recruits on behalf of the company. I took a bath , dressed up in one of my tidiest attires, and drove to my office. I tried to think about the poor chap but he was gone, gone out of mind. I suddenly felt a feeling of satisfaction and a cool pleasance all around me.
The results had come out. Two had been selected. One of them was some Mr. Gupta the other was a Mr. Kumar. There was no Mr. Sood as usual. The names had been put up at the main notice board of the office. There were tensed faces all around who visited the notice board. Most of them returned with an expression of hopelessness and despair. I saw one who was happy. He was probably one of the selected ones. Then i saw something that i had never expected. Among the visitors there was he standing, Mr. Sood gazing at the notice board. And then and there the creepy feeling returned. He stared at me for a while. I could not match eyes with him. A moment turned into an hour. And then in the next moment suddenly he was gone.
I rushed out of my office to check him out. But he was gone. There was nowhere to be seen of him anymore. I tried hard to find him but there was none. I did not know why was i looking for him like a madman or that what i would do if i faced him right onto his face. It appeared as though he had the answers to my all sudden developed fits of madness and uncanny hallucinations. I looked all around repeatedly with longing eyes but he was nowhere to be found.
I turned thinking that this story was finally over for the good. But as i was turning my head i suddenly realised that someone from a distance was looking at me. I turned with horror to find that it was him. He was looking straight at me. Motionless as he was standing, even the bright sun failed to light up his face. I could not see his face but i knew it was he. I stood there awestruck, sweating profusely. He did not move a bit. I wanted to scream for the guards but what was the point. He was doing nothing, not even on the grounds of stalking could i had got him all beaten up. Not that i did not want to call the guards but i felt it would be wrong if i did so. I was somewhat feeling sorry for the poor soul. He was still looking at me. I wanted to shout and say sorry but i realised that i choked. The words won’t come out at all. Finally i mustered some sort of courage and said as loud as i could “ i’m sorry”. Some of the people around looked as if i had gone nuts..!! I coldly looked at them so the situation would not turn into a mocking one. But my attention was towards the boy. He was there unaffected by my apology. He must have been cursing me for all the losses that he had ever faced.
He was standing even stiller then aver before. Now there was sheer serenity in his face which even shook me deep into my nerves. He wanted no apology. What he wanted was an answer. What were his faults. He was well enough qualified for the job except that his roots weren’t sunken in the soils if English language. He bent his head down, turned back with the calmness he already had and then slowly made his way towards the main exit, trying to face the world with the same innocence with which he had once faced a failed interview. Slow but steady he walked out of the campus and then after a minute or two he was gone..!! vaporised in the thin air. This time i was sure that he had gone from my mind, my soul and all of my universe. I felt a sense of relief and turned towards the office door. The new recruits were waiting. I had to mentor them about their future with the company.............